so not im gonna wait for the countdown. no use anyways...
i cant wait anymore, im gonna TRY to go to bed.

just saw the books i needed for class.. i theres like 4 of them that are 60 bucks. X(
geeez! why do books have to be expensive!!!
looking forward to school and work!

mmmkay, so i decided :
-im not saying no starbucks but like once in a while.
-save money. -__________- i know right???
-focus on school work. =(

 

"cas baby youre a fireeeeeeeworkkkk!"

tomorrow is the first day of the month! you know what that means...

23 months!!! or lets just say a year and eleven months.
thats pretty amazing.. cant touch on that!!!

 

happy new years!!!

"theres a party in my bedroom alll night longgg"

 

just because u dont like this picture >=)

is hating the world at the moment. <^>
well... hello new year. i really dont expect anything. im just waiting on what you have to offer me.
i hope i work tomorrow. keke

your funny.... yeah im talking to you!!!
kekekke. i love you, no one else. MWHAHAHA your funny honey bee.

raymond u really offended me.
and now i just feel sad about EVERYTHING! =(

 

no no its okay...... *takes a deep breathe...* 

ill get over it once i sleep it out.

did i watch black swan yet????
hmmm, let me anser that for you

 

-________________-

i must say being by myself today sucked but browsing around target, ross the mall was actually pretty great. being by myself isnt that bad.

"the sun may never rise the way it did with you.. and he may never kiss me the way that you do, but atleast he makes me feel like a part of his life atleast he doesnt make me cry, i know i can call him mine"

work was cool cool today, thank god i did fitting rooms!! woot woot! but the down part is that i have no customers... rarely.. oh well. job is getting easier and easier.
i got a visit from babe! hahhaha
"excuse miss.." and hella touching, i was like who the hell is touching me!
and stupid annoying kids! omg, talk about 12 year olds -___-
anyways, after went to watch tron, omg, I LOVED IT!
it was so goood, and hottie makes it better!!! geez!
i still need to watch black swan though! =/ i will!
and i cant wait for my paycheck to come... why?!? because i SHOULD be ballin. i should!
HAHAHA today i hella got pissed off because i had no money.. and i didint realize the date i worked.. hahahaah. i was counting this weeks.
gonna work alot this week! blehhh! its ok. i hope they keep me? hmmm, idk. but i can put my two weeks like nothing soo yeah.
anyways driving home i saw in the corner of my eye something small going down and i hella thought it was a spider!! so i started panicing and braking and opened the light to check it out. and thank god it was a feather!
hmmm, i forgot what else i was suppose to blob about???

babe and i played board games the rest of the night.. yay! that was pretty fun. good day. good day.
work tomorrow -___- lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! closing too. omg. eww. but pay day! oh wait i forgot, thats all the dinner anyways. >=(

 

this is the only song i like from work too.  they need to change the songs now because it gets annoying..
today was actually a good day.
managers were nice only because my district manager was there..
i wasnt really nervous like everyone else was.
hah! lame. all the fakeness came out of them.
but hey atleast they were nice!
omg there were a group of fobby ass filipinos like fresh off teh boat. the ones who think theyre cool too.
and so one guy was nodding theyre head.
me and e.t. saw and he was like "so which guy are you feeling"
me: "oh hellllllll noooooo!"
hella crackin up.
hah. "ypu know what im saying..." <- managers "saying"
i think theyre gonna keep up. but idk i dont really want to.. but ill keep the job and look for another job. lol.
someone just quit... LOL. not surprised...

first survey in the blog.

Have your parents ever caught you drinking? no, they seen me. kinda surprised but not. idk, theyre weird.

Do you love the last boy/girl you were talking to?  yes, truely.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? no doubt!

What were you doing 30 minutes ago? watching youtube videos.

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you? michael.

Last restaurant you went to? ninja star sushi! yumm

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? raymundo.

Did you have an exciting last weekend? noo.

Have you ever crawled through a window? hah yeah.

What do you spend most of your money on? starbucks -___-

Where were you at 1AM sunday morning? my bed.

Ever kissed someone over 30?  kiss on the lips, hell no! but mikes mom.

Is there a secret you've never told your parents? yess.

Do you like yourself? sometimes.

Have you ever dyed your hair? yes, horrible experience. -___-

Are you wearing a necklace? nope.

Who is someone you wish you could fix things with? my family.

Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again? no.

Are you an emotional person? yes.

What's something that can always make you feel better? starbucks. keke. 

Did your parents spoil you as a child? noo.

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex? i found a memory stick that does have pics of us.

How's your heart lately? its ok.

Are you a cuddler? fuck yeah i am.

Will this weekend be a good one? idk, we'll see.

What do you want rightn ow? im feeling ice cream.. hehe.

Who can always cheer you up? if were ok, then michael.

Have you ever gone nude/streaked in public? no, but down to!

Who hugged you last? michael.

Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing? as pjs.

Are you a kissable person? sureee!

Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you? YES! bitch!

What is your relationship status? with someone.

Who was the last person to come to your house? michael.

Look behind you, what do you see? my closet.

How many rooms does your house have? 4

Have you ever worked in a food place? no, i wouldnt mind.

What would you name your future daughter? kylie. leila. 

Who and where was the last concert you went to? couch tour? or jay Z

Whats on your schedule for tomorrow? nothing.

The last song you heard? all signs point to lauderdale -adtr

What do you think of love? its a power thing.

When is the last time you went to a party? uhhh, dont rememeber.

When is the next time you'll hit up a club? omg, idk! havent gone in a while

Do you still talk to any of your ex's? noo, but i was planning on asking how is he.

If you had to eat 1 thing for the rest of your life, what? fries.

Name 1 thing good about Myspace? music

Does anyone know your Myspace password? yeah.

Have you dated anyone on your top 4? yes.

Has your number 2 on your friends ever made you cry? lol, too lazy to look.

How do you feel about abortions? if its necessary, then yeah.

Do you eat junk food everyday? yess.

How often do you drive? rarely.

Where did you last drive to? two days ago.

Describe your bestfriend? hes my boyfriend.

Who was the last person to touch you? what the.. michael.

How did you and your number 1 become friends? met in class.

How late did you stay up last night and why? uhhhh 3? la vics made me tooo full!

What's the connection between you and the last person you texted? friends.

Do you like someone? hah. 

Have you ever been hit by the opposite sex? who hasnt?

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with an S? nope.

How's your life lately? its a downer.. but oh well? it has its ups and down.

Do you know anyone that is currently locked up? no.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? yes

What do you think about the current gas prices? fucken hella expensive!

Would you sex tape with you in it for 3 million dollars? yeah.

Have you ever been so drunk that you blacked out? nooo.

Do you think that you’re a good person? yes.

Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? yes.

Are you happier single or in a relationship? ????????

Have you ever flirted with a friends crush? omg, someone thought that! but i forgot who! ohh i remmeber it was hannah. lol

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? never!

Ever ordered from an infomercial? nope.

Do you believe in love at first sight? yeah.

Have you ever requested a song on the radio? nope.

Do you hate the last girl you were talking to? sometimes.

When is the last time you took a nap? uhhhh, i dont remember.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? didnt i answered this?

To text you? facebook.

To send you a myspace message? too lazy to look.

To send a friend request? on FB, philip

Whose bed did you sleep in last night? mine.

Have you kissed anyone in the last week? yeah?

Do you miss anyone? yeah

What does your 8th text message say and who was it from? ok from michael.

What are you listening to? nothing.

Is there one place you'd like to visit? magic mountain.

Have you held hands with anyone today? nopee.

Do you like winter time? yess.

Do you own uggs? nope.

Do you regret anything? nope.

What are you excited about? honestly, two years.

Plans for today? nothing, i want starbucks though.

Seven days from now will you be in a relationship? hopefully, yesss i am.

What are you doing tomorrow? i answered this!

How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over? 3

Where is your number one person on your friends list? home.

Do you want to dance? yeah i wouldnt mind.

Who do you not get along with? co-workers? ppl in general.

Last movie you watched? uhhh, the cartoon thingy... megamind. i tihnk.. 

What are your plans for the weekend? black swan hopefully.

What do you notice first about a guy? it can be between scent or looks

Something interesting happen lately? nothing really.

Where is the person you like right now? home.

Last time you took a shower? mornig.

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? sleeping.

What were you doing 30 minutes ago? this survey i think? its pretty long.

When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex? dont remember.

Have you ever been around someone who was high? yes.

Do you like where you live? hell no!

Last thing you purchased? sushi

Have you kissed your number one on your top? duhh!

Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are? home, it sucks.. bored.

Explain why you last threw up? got drunk. hah!

Where did your last hug take place? outdoors i believe.

Who was the last person to hold your hand? michael.

Are you a jealous person? not really.

Did you have a good birthday this year? not yet!!

Are you tired right now? no.

What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships? if your in love, then your in LOVE. 

Do you chew on your straws? yes.

Who was the last person you rode in the car with that was under 21? raymond?

Three days from now will you be in a relationship? yes

Do you have curly hair? no

Who was at your house last? michael.

Do you lead people on? nooo, but apparently someone thought i did?

Is there anyone who doesn't like you because of something you didn't do? idkk.. maybe?

Have you kissed anyone today? yes...

Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? i think i have? idk actually no.

Last person you cried over? hahha mike.

Do you cry easily? HAHAH, yes!

Do you have any brothers? one fagget.HAH

What do you think of them? bitch but not. but bitch

Where did you go today? peters bakery, panda.

What should you be doing right now? starbucks!

Are you a heavy sleeper? noo

When was the last time you hand washed the dishes? i dont rememeber, while back

Name everyone that made you smile today? micahel. raymond made me laugh

Who was the last person to put their arm around you? michael.

Three feelings at the moment? bored, thirsty, blehhh

What are you listening to right now?  shut up already answered.

The highlight of your week? went to eat with michael

Who were the last people you ate with? ^^^^^

What really makes you mad? when ppl disturb me.

Ever had a drunken night in Mexico? nooo, fuck that shit

What are your plans for tonight? nothing.

What does the seventeenth text message in your inbox say? idk, from michael

What's the last piercing you got? 2nd ear hole

Ever toilet papered someone’s house? hahaha no

Do you want to be married right now? NO

What were you doing at 4am this morning? sleeping

What do you usually do first in the morning? check facebook

Do you have college plans? sure dooo homie.

Are you mad at anyone right now? no... 

How many different beverages have you had today? one.

What did you do today? shut up

What is your favorite flavor of jelly? ???

Do you want children? yessssir

What were you doing at 7pm yesterday? at santa row 

You're in the hospital, who on your TOP friends would come to visit you? good question.

If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be? like thats gonna help..

Do people underestimate you? yes

Are you named after a grandparent? no

What's something you're scared of? SPIDERS

Name some of the people you love? michael. mom.

What's your favorite color? black.

Ever been kissed under fireworks? nooo, thats cute.

Do you wish someone would call you? no.

Are you usually the heart breaker or the heart broken? both?

Is there a meaning behind your profile song? i dont rememeber what it is,.

Do you have a best friend? not really.

Do you belive that what comes around goes around? hell yeah

What is the last song to make you cry? i dont know.

Is your best friend pretty? sure is

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? not really.

What do you miss? him

Do you give out second chances too easily? i think so

Ever felt that no one relates to you? yupp

Had plans and broke them? yup

When was the last time you saw your grandparents? funeral =(

Who are you jealous of? no one.

hmmm, it was good seeing you for like 5 minutes.

"Be tactful, do not overlook your own oppurtunities"

  my fortune for today from panda.

this is very true....

got me thinking..

omg my dreams are so weird.
i rememeber theres one with my sister and the alligator.
then mike in a cruise ship w/ this fat girl. oohh man idk, i felt anger on that one.

nvm, im hurt now, i dont put things on blast like u do. smh

 

oh well, ill get over it the next day

 

mannn, now i need to figure out how to get your gift again.. ! hmmm! .>=(

you kinda disappointed me here and there..
but the slap in the end was worth it MWHAHAH =)

im excited! omg, i hope i dont work today. im a happy camper, dont ruin it!

me: wanna go see black swan. wanna join me?
babe: sure thing buffalo wing.
me: omg. yay =D

im soooo excited!!! i just like literally jumped on my bed and i heard a crack n oise. but idgaf. im excited!! omg, whyy! HAHHAHA

gooood morning!!!
i feel much better than last night.

how do you feel when your family doesnt like him and he doesnt like your family? and im just there...
thats why i just want to be alone, well dont awnt to be but i feel that i am. independent. by myself. thats why i dont mind living on my own by myself either. it'll get lonely, but its the same feeling now right?

so i saw all the clips for black swan... HOLY FUCK i want to see it this instant!

so zac efron is single now ehhh..

im glad that i worked today, but ewww! co-workers suck!

whatever bitches!!! im out in a few weeks!

 

ughhh my feet freaken hurts!

 

i like her hairrrr!

 

thats awesome!

 

time to go to work, oh joy!

but i want that money!

geez, ill only have enough for dinner!

i almost got in an accident again!
omg, i need to pay attention more than my surroundings. blehh! :P

"but you can skyrocket away from me and never come back if you find another galaxy far from here with more room to fly, just leave me your stardust to remember you by"...

omg, this is saddening..
i think im depressed.
i really dont think i have anyone around me to make me happy either?? well i do, but its complicated.
maybe hanging with the wrong crowd ehh?
idk. idk what makes me happy...
i just want somebody to just be there..
somebody who wants to hang with me everyday and like be bored together, but still be there?

 

i feel like patrick. =/

 

im hungryyyy!

O....M.....G.... seriously?!?

im gonna flip out.

im irritated now..
i feel that im left out in this family or idk out of place.
my mom doesnt wana tell me where theyre going?!?
its just a simple question. im not gonna get mad or anything.
christmas in the park later? really?!
why with them? i dont really feel like doing anything.
i wish i never went home. mann, if only i had an apartment to go back to and just sleep there.
i rather be by myself. it gets lonely yeah, but u can have ppl to come over..
well, i dont have any good friends anyways. *sigh*
im freaken hungry. anyways this is my period speaking.
ps. PMS!

i think im said this already, but coming home the next morning makes me feel like a slut. i have no idea why. mmm, more like ke$ha. hah. -____- no more....

 

HAHAHAHAHAHAH

i like how my dad looks when he is listening to his mp3 player. hahahahhaha

 

pokemon!!!

woot woot in vacation starting today!!!! woooo!

bro: "what fruit is in season right now?"
me: PUMPKIN!
are you retarded or what!

"are you my friend?"
yess.
"your my best friend"
really?!
"yeahh."
youre my best friend too.

ofcourse ill be your friend no matter what happens.
youre the top notch.
and i feel honored being your best friend.

i cant belive black swan isnt in SAN JOSE! why!!! santa row should have it, why not?!?

woo! i got paid, but i cant spend it! =( need to save money.

im craving sushi!!!
:O...

i got a c on my test, proud of myself for atleast having a passing grade. *phew*

if you need space, then ill give you space? if you dont want me there, then tell me so i can leave.
looks like i have to put down that ring, im not wearing it because i dont feel like i deserve to wear it.
ill wear it till ill feel that love.
plus you never told me the promise.
i bet theres no promise at all thats why.

 

theres so cute!!!! i cant believe they broke up =(

 

im depressed, i knew it. slightly