i feel like im going through process. a dramatic change of what i see now. like my perspective of things. what i think about things. my judgement. the way i feel about things.
im going through that phase...
its like very complex and indescribable. its mindfucking.
damn.. for real though. its very crazy.
or maybe i am literally going crazy.
this is as real is it gets.

et: "here throw this. let me see how u throw the football."
i throw the ball.
et: "ok damn ok you're right.. u do hang out the the boys."

HAH.

tillys hired 6 ppl.
they hired the pretty girl with the baby ^__^
knew it.
me: "justin, now u cant hit on her because shes a coworker."
justin: "yeah i can idc. hahah"
me: "damnnn, like that huh? its like that?!"
catelyn isnt doing schedules anymore! bitchh! mwhahahah!
i can officially do visuals now.
i sold two fragrances in a week. WOW. amazing.. without even trying.
so i cant wait to get paid.
im gonna get a baseball mit because i wanna be outdoors and do sports.
and i wanna save up for my bike.
and i LOVE the new cd for work. omg, good playlist good playlist.

im tired.
work tomorrow. -____-
i am not looking forward to work this whole week.
maybe its because i worked mostly everyday.
i cant imagine being fulltimw manager.
id go crazy.

lol. accomplished what i felt like doing. HAH. -__-
hey, i havent done one in a while.. so surprise! 
today was fun.
havent been to the park for a while.
i didnt get to run though =/ but i will tomorrow.

one day....

ill be good enough.

i think its one of those days were u just cant stand it but the same time u see it and u realize it and its just pointless. and in ur head ur just sitting there laughing eating popcorn because its so predictable.
im done.
i really cant go and just open up to ppl.
i mean yeah making freinds is cool and all but idk.
its not that simple. its like ur in a crowd but still feel alone.
go ahead and judge me. if u dont have a reason why u hate me then idk what to say to you.
i am a nice person. i really am.
i need to find true friends.
ill be a loner if i have to. oh well. yeah that feeling sucks...
i was really a loner before anyways. those days were i go home everyday and just watch tv while EVERYONE is out.
i kinda miss those days.
ill know when someone really wants to be my friend.
some one who really just wanna talk. or not even talk just chill. u dont have to necessarily talk.
because you will actually put an effort on our friendship.
k thanks.
and for ppl who use me for who knows what:

and basically its me not giving a fuck anymore. im not pointing fingers. its just a general idea.
so dont go and think its you. it may nor even be you in the first place. so dont trip potato chip.

bet on it...

as tacky as it is.. its my inspiration. like for real..

OOOHHH MANN! BURNNN!

" you need to take that remote and press the EJECT button!"

those moments were CLEARLY they arent listening to you. when they say they do or "yeah i know" but its because its from certain ppl that they dont believe you. you know what im saying? jesus christ!
everyone is clearly hypocrites.

OMG!

never again will i work at eastridge... and i wanted to transfer there??
hell no.
geez i just wanted to slap the lead adam for nagging.
and the elisa girl acts like i have ten hands over here saying i need to fix this and that.

dammmnit.
now i cant paint.
oh well.

working at eastridge tonight...

-__-
its a monday... no one goes on monday..
hahaha well i wanted to experience how it is over there.

today was a nice day.
all by myself.
went to browse at the plant.
visited grandpa.
michaels for art supplies.
now painting!
lehh goo!

yes... only $0.59!!!!!!!!!
woot woot!
and canvas said it was on sale but they ran out the sale one -__- so it was $10.

OMGGGGGGG!

oh am i in your way! XD

You better put on a condom… if you’re gonna act like a dick you gotta dress like one.

mom: "what are u doing"
me: im going crazy.
mom: "what?"
me: im painting my mind away..
mom: "at night?"
me: yesss.

well not siblings.. but others. its not a nice thing to do.